Mémoires d'un petit illustrateur

Mood: upset
Sounds: various

I really HATE people being vague on what they want for the holidays, I equally hate this whole idea that just because someone asks what you'd like for Christmas it means they are hunting for gifts for themselves. Frankly it insults me, I wouldn't be asking unless I genuinely WANTED to get someone a Christmas gift. So being told in a very snarky way that I'm fishing for gifts or that I'm making someone have to buy me a gift in turn utterly infuriates me to no end. Seriously how dare you accuse me of having false intentions, sure it sucks to not be equally reciprocated but it's not about the present more than the fact that someone took the time to think about someone, think about something that they might want, need, deserve even go as far as to ask to get a better idea or double check and then get smacked in the face with remarks like that.

Speaking of Christmas Gifts...

Mood: Comfy
Sounds: CSI: Las Vegas

Passed my Diabetes quiz/exam with full marks in my Health and Fitness Class, Just still need to cram in the hours at the gym, but I'm enjoying it. It gives me the chance to think/day dream and get all the stress (and fat) off of me. Thanksgiving is around the bend so already planning things out for that. What I'm even more excite about is next Saturday I'm having a small outing with my family to San Francisco to pick up a few things and finally see the Baby the Stars Shine Bright store! I'm so so so so so unbelievably excited. I know I don't live impossibly far away from SF (roughly 45-60ish minutes) but it's always been a case of not having time or money to go there. I know I might not walk away with anything (though I at least intend to buy at the very least something) but I'll be happy enough to just take photos of the place and get to see my favorite brand line up close and oh dear I'm just rambling on aren't I..
I really hope they'll still have these two dresses and skirt there for me to at the very least look at.
Beardsley Alice
Victorian Card
Nightmare Castle
Nightmare Castle Skirt
From what I've read from other Lolitas visiting there, there happens to be a great little crepe shop in the vicinity. I thought it be nice to check it out but I'm not 100% sure. It sounds nice as a snack/light lunch but not as a main meal for the outing. I'll have to look in to it further.
I feel so sleepy with this weather, then again I love this weather! I'm glad its all over cast and blustery. It's the best time to stay inside all warm with a mug of tea or cocoa, seriously thats bliss. Throw in some rain and I'm set.
Anyway got some little things to take care of before heading off to the gym.
I also swear I'm not going to let Thanksgiving be my binge day. I can't let my hard work slip because of it.

Mood: Unwell
Sounds: Documentary

The cold is making whats left of my cough act up. Hot tea will take care of it but it's still annoying.
Although I said I'd be working on my art I recently got 'Sherlock Holmes vs Jack the Ripper" for the PC. I enjoy detective/mystery as much as I enjoy my Victorian/ Ripper-ology, the sheer fact that they are combined makes it even better for me. It's a short game with a distinct time line and I'll probably finish it up in a day or so. This lead to a deep discussion between my boyfriend and I about the issues the game had with story and content. As much as I am enjoying it, various things are doctored up with Photoshop or story wise that don't follow either the protocol of the times, the way a certain character would act or even the facts surrounding the case (I don't want to take up journal space discussing other things they say the killer is like when enough evidence around today proves otherwise). What it came down to was how to write a good mystery and both of our problems with it. Even though I've already planned out what I was going to give my boyfriend for Christmas I think I have a few more ideas on what to send.

Mood: Light Hearted
Sounds: Garbage Truck (so Noisy!)
Hasing: Rose Tea Latte

I'm feeling alot better since my previous entry. Thanks to my boyfriend, who not only cheered me up but encouraged me, so I'll keep trying.
This morning when checking on the latest in the Lolita Community I came upon two documentary. Both talk about Lolita and while both don't cover everything it's still a great introduction into it. It would be nice if one day a full length Doc could be done but that might not happen for a while.




Still not much else to report on, I met my 25+ hour goal and now still have to keep at it so I'll be off to the gym today. Then I must study, hopefully I can work a little more on my latest drawing (the one posted previously). Been figuring out presents still, I have a pretty general idea what I'm getting for people, I'll defiantly be sending my boyfriends presents the first week of December so it doesn't go through the same drama that happened last year.

Not much to say, right now I just don't feel confident or supported in a number of things, Which just leaves me feeling really bitter and hating everyone/everything. To better phrase it "Why bother with anything, not like they care."